Currently Listening Love Is Dead By Kerli Love Is Dead see related

You Can Set Your World On Fire.

weeell here we are again. why do i always wind up on xanga; blogging and shit? i must have at least five accounts. haha. anyways; brett's being a sweetheart <3 awez; i love him. oh wow, i just realized how much i go off and on with this boy. haha; sucks. but anyways; i'm just gonna blab on and on and on and on. i have a project due tomorrow; presenting to the whole grade; fun fun. on some art museum shit.

lmfao today; in schoool: we were folding papers and i was yelling at steven cause he didn't match and stuff. it was funny, and then robert kept messing with my ocd and folding his sleves up unevenly. but then was nice enough to walk me to the trolley. i got on and i was all by myself; no zach today ):

it actually wasn't that bad, just blast your ipod in your ears and whip a magazine and there you go. set till fourty fourth street. and then when i got home, i started feeling all down again; talking to stephy and matt. && alex, madison, donnie, and brett. yes; OH! and camila;  how could i forget my buubble butt best friend; besides stephanie of course.

i love my friends; i really do. my TRUE friends; like even brett. well duh, we all know i love him. even though we've been fighting, he's still one of my bestest friends in the whoooooooooooooooooooole entire world. he always will be. and nick; i've been friends with him since second grade; haha. he's great.

hm, lets see this weekend; what am i doiiiing?

school shopping, yes. neeed new clothes; got all my books.

OH SPEAKING OF SCHOOL!

we're not getting macbook airs ): just macbooks.

ohh well, good enough i guess. at least its not some shitty hp.

i hate them things. i prefer mac myself.

dia's playing with some bead; like shes rolling it around the hallway; its cuute.

making little bangy sounds and what not.

awez; yeah.

<3

Currently Listening I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning By Bright Eyes see related

Get It Off Your Chest, Dee

yeah yeah; you all keep telling me that i bitch too much, but i really don't give a fuck about what you fucking think.

anyways; i'm ready to just fucking give up on everything; i've lost the most important person in my life over some fucking little argument and he's been like practically ignoring me for the past week. to be honest, i really don't know how to write out how i've been feeling; some days i'm all like whoohoo and then other days i'm all like fuck you fucking asshole leave me the fuck alone. ugggh and the only person who i can realllllllly realllllly talk to about it (cause he's going through the same shit) is matt. and of course spiderman; she understands too.

uggggggh; boys.

the most confusing people in the world; no matter what it is, they can never make up their minds. god, why can't shit like relationships be so much easier? love is always the most complicated thing ever and you don't always get what you want. theres so many fights, disagreements, and tears. but then, theres always the hugs, holding of hands, and the kisses.

and sometimes, two people who think they're made for each other don't realize that even them too have to talk things over with each other and can't take advantage of the relationship. that they can't push it over the top; i know i sure learned that with my last relationship. hopefully i didn't ruin it completley.

i know that i love him more than life itself. i just wish he could see that, i wish he could go back to being hisself; the one who called me at 2 in the morning just to tell me he loves me or the one who held me close to him when i was shaking with nervousness more than ever before. i wish that we could go back in time and i could realize all the things that i could've and shouldnt've done in the past. like they always say, you never see what you've truly had until you lost it. and i regret every fight i picked and argument i started with this one; because now i understand how much i've lost and i've realized that it's never going to be the same.

this blog; was made for a certain someone and if he's smart enough; he'll figure out it was him <3

i love you so much boobear, you'll always be the one for me.